2 months...

2 months ago yesterday I decided to go out with this incredible handsome and funny guy. He made me smile and get butterflies in my stomach. When he smiled he would light up the world and when he looked at me I felt as if I was the only person around. I have been dating Austin Taylor McCullough for 2 incredible months now. I've met his parents, his other parents haha and his friends. From what I can see I think I get the sign of approval. It doesn't seem like 2 months but it has been. The best 2 months ever. He has gone through a lot just to be able to come see me & I feel as if I don't show him that I appreciate it but I truly do. He is the most amazing guy I know. He is soooo unlike any guy I have every date for the better. He makes me so happy and feel so special. I'm sad I have to leave for the summer but hopefully it won't be too long til I can come back. My parents know how much I desire to come back for many reasons, the school, the amazing education I receive, the friends I've made this year and Austin. I love him to death and he knows that. So this is how it all started....I could have ruined everything the night we went to Hollywood, it was horrible I was with friends who ended up showing 5hrs later than the time I told Austin yet he stayed there til we got there. He was such a trooper. Then my friends who met me there acted like idiots and made Austin & his friends upset. I really don't know how but he texted me and asked me for another date, an official date. I of course said yes!! He picked me up in his blues with 3 white roses.... can you say awwwwwwwww I mean seriously!!! I remember chats we would have and one of them was that he would never ever wear his blues to Disneyland....well that night he did :D!!!! Then the next date was a day later back at Disneyland where we had our 1st kiss in the Chip N Dale Tree-house in Toon Town...most amazing kiss ever!!!! Then he asked me out under the fireworks sooo romantic but I needed to make sure that was what I really wanted. So I prayed about it & came to the answer of yes obviously & we have been going out since. He has been the most amazing boyfriend I could have asked for & his friends and family have been so loving & welcoming that it made it a little less intimidating for me. So to all of you I thank. So I think 2 months is just getting started in this relationship....I think we can make it but only time will tell, like my mom said today, this distance will show if we can truly make it or not...not being able to see each other like every weekend or every other weekend being busy with jobs and not being able to talk constantly. I know we can make it just gotta get through this mini deployment :D I love you Austin

Summer....its coming all to quickly

So finals are next week.... & then officially on Tuesday of next week I'm done with my 1st year of College. It's definitely bittersweet. I'm glad to be done with 8am classes and 7-10pm classes and all the essays, but I'm not ready to leave the friendships I've just begun. We've known each other for about 9 months now....gotten to know each other pretty well spending countless mornings and night together. I'm not ready to give up being on "crack" as we like to call it but being high on life with other Christians my age going through what I am. I'm also not ready to leave to Nor Cal because I'm leaving Austin in So Cal. I'm calling it our mini deployment because idk if & when we can talk because I will hopefully be working a lot at my old job if they take me back. It sucks but I know we can make it through anything because we love each other and trust each other also we communicate our problems or fears about certain things which will help us in the long run. Skype will be my new best friend. I'm kinda happy I'm coming home though because I get to see my brother Matthew off into the Navy for Basic Training. I pray he does well and comes back changed and ready to start his life. I'm also excited to see all my friends and those who are going to graduate this year. I'm excited to see what they do with their lives since I was just like them a year ago....it's crazy to think about it. 1 year ago I was just about to graduate, excited to go to College still a child in behavior relying on my parents for a lot of stuff not very independent. Now I can stand on my own two feet without my parents being right behind me pushing me along telling me to do my homework or laundry or dishes lol. Summer used to be about relaxing, boating and unforgettable moments with friends. This year it takes on a whole new meaning of sadness but also hope that I can come back and see everyone again maybe not as a student of Biola University as planned but as a friend. If I cannot come back I'm planning a trip down in October to hit up Disneyland and hopefully in November for the Marine Corps ball if I get asked by Austin....but thats too far in advance to think right now. I'm taking it day by day. Had a good 2 & 1/2 hour cry on this subject of summer. Just to know how much people changed my life makes me smile and hopefully I've affected or changed some of their lives for the better. Hopefully when I come home my friends and family will see how much I've grown in my faith as well as maturity. I hope they can see I'm not some small teenager but as an adult who has opinions and can have a well educated conversation with others. Let's make the best of this summer, you only get one a year

My Birthday 5/3

I'm officially 19!!! haha it seems like yesterday I turned 18, was just about to graduate High School knowing I was going to Biola. Time seems to fly when your doing what you love with people you love. I celebrated at Disneyland....one of my all time dreams I finally got done. I love how the "cast members" all tell you happy birthday, it just makes the day feel even better! I was sad I didn't get to hang with friends at home since I am in So Cal but I went to Dland with my friend Meagan. Then when I got home I was surprised by a party from Candace, Danielle, Katie & Sara. They got me presents & cards & a room full of balloons. I had an early birthday with Austin in San Diego when he took me to Indian food in his Blues...I love being a Marine's girl :D. So now that I'm 19 its a tease you're over 18 so you're already legal but 2 years away from legally drinking....21 is gonna be the last year I look forward too...all the rest are just let downs..you're just getting older. Nothing is gained but knowledge, no new privileged gained. Now gotta get ready for finals in 2 weeks, finish up my 5pg essay then do my take home final early. Oh the life of a college student :D