So finals are next week.... & then officially on Tuesday of next week I'm done with my 1st year of College. It's definitely bittersweet. I'm glad to be done with 8am classes and 7-10pm classes and all the essays, but I'm not ready to leave the friendships I've just begun. We've known each other for about 9 months now....gotten to know each other pretty well spending countless mornings and night together. I'm not ready to give up being on "crack" as we like to call it but being high on life with other Christians my age going through what I am. I'm also not ready to leave to Nor Cal because I'm leaving Austin in So Cal. I'm calling it our mini deployment because idk if & when we can talk because I will hopefully be working a lot at my old job if they take me back. It sucks but I know we can make it through anything because we love each other and trust each other also we communicate our problems or fears about certain things which will help us in the long run. Skype will be my new best friend. I'm kinda happy I'm coming home though because I get to see my brother Matthew off into the Navy for Basic Training. I pray he does well and comes back changed and ready to start his life. I'm also excited to see all my friends and those who are going to graduate this year. I'm excited to see what they do with their lives since I was just like them a year ago....it's crazy to think about it. 1 year ago I was just about to graduate, excited to go to College still a child in behavior relying on my parents for a lot of stuff not very independent. Now I can stand on my own two feet without my parents being right behind me pushing me along telling me to do my homework or laundry or dishes lol. Summer used to be about relaxing, boating and unforgettable moments with friends. This year it takes on a whole new meaning of sadness but also hope that I can come back and see everyone again maybe not as a student of Biola University as planned but as a friend. If I cannot come back I'm planning a trip down in October to hit up Disneyland and hopefully in November for the Marine Corps ball if I get asked by Austin....but thats too far in advance to think right now. I'm taking it day by day. Had a good 2 & 1/2 hour cry on this subject of summer. Just to know how much people changed my life makes me smile and hopefully I've affected or changed some of their lives for the better. Hopefully when I come home my friends and family will see how much I've grown in my faith as well as maturity. I hope they can see I'm not some small teenager but as an adult who has opinions and can have a well educated conversation with others. Let's make the best of this summer, you only get one a year
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