ECLIPSE!!!

AHHHHHHHH so I just got done watching The Twilight Saga: Eclipse it is by far my favorite my movie now! I was afraid that the director David Slade who is known for scary movies was going to make it really dark & un-romantic but I was soooo wrong. I loved it. Like it says it all began with a choice. Edward....or Jacob but really in the end we learn that it was about who she is supposed to be & who she is thats the choice she must make. To be who she is supposed to be (with Jacob) or to be who she is (with Edward).It had a good balance of romance to action. It had me holding back tears toward the end. The scene I loved the most was when Edward proposed to Bella "Isabella Swan, I promise to love you every moment of forever." then showed the ring & I must say it was some bling bling going on haha. I loved the tent scene. You get a little bit into the head of Edward & it's where Jacob & Edward finally talk to each other without getting into a fight. I wish they didn't rush the scene with Rosalie & her telling about how she was turned :(. But I loved the scene with Charlie & the whole sex talk that was pretty funny. But I loved how romantic it was between Edward & Bella when he tells her that back when he was human in the 1920's he would be courting her, sitting on the porch with ice tea. It was cute. I'm disappointed that my favorite quotes didn't make it in "The Clouds I can handle, but I can't fight with an Eclipse." & "Does my being half naked bother you?" But I am in love with how they incorporated the poem Fire and Ice by Robert Frost "Some say the world will end in fire, Some say in ice. From what I've tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire. But if I had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate To say for destruction ice Is also great And would suffice."
By far my favorite poem I don't know why but I like it. So for me Eclipse gets 10/10 & I sooooo wanna see it again & again & I want to own it on DVD!

Look after my heart — I’ve left it with you.

I love this quote from Eclipse its on page 95. Edward tells this to Bella on a note while she is asleep. I think its really cute! I thought I would do a post with an Eclipse quote since we are officially 1 day away from seeing Eclipse!!! I'm so excited, but I'm most excited for the tent scene all you Twilight fans know what I mean ;) I feel as if I left my heart with Austin. On the Bachelorette a guy named Kasey would always say that he was there to guard and protect Ali's heart. Well this quotes is asking the same. To guard and protect my heart because I will do the same. Seems the mini deployment has turned out to be a long one :( but he asked me to the Marine Corps Ball!!! ahhhhhh I'm so nervous I've never been to a Marine Corps Ball but I did go to an NJROTC Ball & had a blast with friends. So thats something to look forward to in 4 months. Wow.... by then it will be our 7th month anniversary when we go to the Ball. Austin Taylor McCullough Look after my heart— I’ve left it with you. I love you & miss so much!

My Aunt Rachel

So I have technically known her for a lil over a year now but she has made such a big impact on my life. She is such an amazing person I love her! She is someone I can talk to about anything & not have to get a lecture from or talks about right & wrong. She does crazy fun stuff with me & worked out with me over summer last year. We let the boys ride up further while we talked about boys, life & college. She recently moved back to Texas because she could get a job there. I was at Biola when she decided to move. She came down to say her goodbyes so I was the last one to say their goodbyes to her. I totally cried right after because I felt I lost a best friend even though she a txt or phone call away. She has helped me see through some tough times & happy times & has talked to me about stuff I wasn't too sure on. So Aunt Rachel thank you so much for being apart of my life & making it better :D I love & miss you

"Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die"

As Tupac said why are we dying to live, to do the things we do, to go crazy on the weekends or finally graduate...because in the end we are just living to die. Each day is a day closer to death, I can feel it. The whole controversy over 2012 freaks me out. I don't like the though that I'm gonna be 21 & die, its not in my playbook, not on my to do list. I want to live a long life, get married, have kids, then watch my kids grow up, get married & make grandkids. I'm not sure but I feel as if my life has been wasted if the world does end in 2012. I spend my whole life in school so my life is worth nothing in the end all that schooling for nothing. So yeah I feel as if I'm only living to die, right now I'm not thinking straight my head is in the clouds. I just need a wake up call get me out of this state of mind, I'm only hurting myself. Gotta pray, gotta be surrounded by people that love me & I can talk to.

Home

So I've been home for a little over a week now & it's great to see my friends. Its hard finding a job but I'm not giving up. Seeing how my friends have changed in the course of 1 year is pretty cool. It's funny I got told twice that it looks like I lost weight....so all the hours in the gym & not really eating worked haha ;). I just hate sitting around the house not being able to do anything. I need a job asap before I go insane. My neighbor's internet is down so I have to use my brothers' computer...hard to do since my younger brother as well as my mom fight over it so trying to get on is kinda hard hopefully the internet will be up on Mon so I can go back to my laptop lol. I just can't wait to hit up the lake & get my tubing on!!! Here's to making Summer 10' the best one yet!

They finally met!!!

Austin finally met my parents. haha Saturday the 29th we went to Pendleton to pick him up. We then went to Del Mar beach where we played in the water & had a great time getting sunburned. Then we went to Oceanside Pier to check it out then back to Pendleton for dinner. They got along great & my parents love Austin. One big hurdle done....now what do my brothers think?? My older bro & 2 younger ones love him. They talked all night long. So they begged Austin to come to our condo in Indio on Sunday. He said he would so Sunday he got here & we chilled at the pool ;) haha. We cooked up Carne Asada & just had a relaxing day. Then later on we all went in the pool and hot tub. My older brother is going to Navy boot camp in exactly 2 weeks from today so to have Austin in the Marines is good because Matthew could ask him stuff about military and other things. Another thing they both have in common is the both like WoW aka World of Warcraft. I hate it but they both like it so whatever makes em happy. I had to say goodbye to Austin yesterday morning at like 5am worst thing ever but grrr stupid 3 months. I gotta focus on making hella money so I can come back down here! I really don't want to leave. So my parents give him a thumbs up PTL! They like him and how he is a Marine & serving our country. We are a big military family so Austin fits in as well as we all are dorks and completely do stupid stuff that could possibly hurt us all the time. We can make fun of ourselves. So to end it Austin gets the seal of approval from the parents lol YAY!!!