Journal

I know nobody reads this but this is like my journal. My place to put down my raw emotions fresh off the grill in my mind. This past week I feel nothing is going my way & im messing everything up. Getting a low grade on my test which could ultimately lead to me failing the class since we have only 2 tests total. To just not being able to understanding the math hw makes me feel stupid & knowing im going to fail the test next Wed makes me feel oh so much better. Along with having a test on my birthday like what else can the world throw at me?! seriously. I have 2 essays due within a week of each other both being 5pgs long, finals coming up & doing EC for the class i might fail. I have so much to do that I have to do in this last month that I can't just waste time its Finals month & people who have gone to college before know it takes like a month to be ready for Finals. So yeah I'm pissed & I'm upset at myself. Life just threw me the wrong hand at the wrong time & I'm playing them at the wrong time. So from now on there is no more fun time for me. That time has passed now its time to buckle down & get shit done. No more sleeping in & no more watching tv cause i can all my free time is going to go to finished up those damn essays that keep lingering over my head until I can't take them anymore which is now. Shit is hitting the fan & I gotta clean up the mess. Well this is me cleaning it up. I'm tired of this im tired of school cannot wait til June come til I go home. I need the week away from everything at the lake to just be with friends & no outside influences, nobody telling me what to do or who to be.