ENGAGED!!!

Well it's official as of Dec 19th, 2010 that I am engaged! Ahhh I'm so excited this is crazy a little before our 9 month anniversary Austin took me to the Magic Castle. Well we went to the close up room to watch the magician. Well we had to sit in the front row which is weird cause that where the kids sit. Well then at the very end of his act he says that he has 1 more trick but Austin would be doing it. Then a box appeared then Austin got down on one knee & asked me! It was so crazy. Now the fun part is setting the date which has yet to be determined. Its gonna be hard to plan a wedding & go to school. Engagement picture to come in a couple of weeks!

Confused

I'm so confused about the thoughts running through my head. What went wrong, what can I do to fix it. How can I just get by without thinking about it without it plaguing my mind. How did everything get so complicated I just dont know whats going on right now. I'm freaking out I feel like I'm going under with all my thoughts. I just can't seem to get away from them even in my dreams. Just wake me up & tell me this is all a dream because this just can't be reality :/

7 months

I know I know its a day late but w/e I was busy all day lol. Yesterday was Austin & mine 7month anniversary. like 99% of them we couldn't see each other but its ok. Yesterday I spent all day helping Kaylie with homework cause if we got it all done this weekend we are seeing Bieber tomorrow in concert in a fancy suite so it will be cool. But I got new shoes thank god i needed them cause my other shoes were tearing apart my socks & ankles. I also got a semi bra for the ball so you can't see straps or the wrap around part. So yeah thats been fun. Austin I love you

It's been a while

it has been a while since my last post. A quick update into my life. Matthew is getting stationed in Nevada :( but he will be at Pendleton for 2 months for more schooling which is good :). Austin spent the weekend up here we had a good time. We finally got to exchange our 6 month anniversary gifts with each other I got him Sex Wax for his surfboard & he got me a penguin that I cuddle with every night. There are somethings that just get to me & on Sat night one of the things just bothered me I just had to leave the house, go on a walk with Kaylie to stop crying. But anyways School is good most of my classes are really boring they give me too long to do my homework so i get it done early & then have nothing to do because I'm used to way short deadlines. As far as I know it I have 1 A 2 B's & 1 C which is pretty good because Business English (the C grade) is really hard stupid grammar & punctuation! Trying to look for a job at the moment. Been hanging with Justin cause he keeps me entertained by taking me on hikes & stuff. OOOO I went to Vegas too like 2 weekends ago. It was awesome say Criss Angel perform & got to go to the Luxor, Excalibur & New York New York so it was a lot of fun. I also got to go to Hoover Dam & stand in Nevada & Arizona at the same time so it was cool. Looking forward to Halloween then the Marine Corps Ball on the 7th of Nov then taking Austin up home for Thanksgiving which he will spend with his family but he will meet the rest of mine. So I'm excited for the upcoming months :D!!!!

6 months

Well its official Austin & I have hit the half a year mark. AWESOME! It's been a pretty crazy half a year we've had our ups and downs but we are still together..yay!!! I sent Austin a letter for our 6 month because we can't see each other for a couple of weeks. But anyways I thought the letter was pretty cute & he liked it too so thats good. Idk when I get to see him again but hopefully we can have a skype date tonight...

Biola/San Diego

This weekend I was lucky enough to escape back to Biola for the weekend. Candace & I hit up Disneyland Friday because it was the 1st day they were starting up the Halloween decorations. It was a lot of fun. Saturday was a homework/study/chill day just chillin in our pj's all day felt pretty nice & to be back with my friends that really know me haha it was nice totally being myself. Sunday we decided to go to San Diego (Candace & Me) Austin wanted to go to so we went to Oceanside to pick him & his friend up. We had to run to Pendleton so his friend could shower so we went to the MCX & I picked up a bumper sticker. So I had something planned when we got to San Diego....we went to Lazer Tag I kicked but got 3rd out of 9 people. I kicked Austin's friends butt & he's a Marine bonus points. So we had free time so we decided to check out the Midway. That ship is huge it was so cool seeing how it would be like to live on a ship in the Navy...no thank you. That took about an hour and a half then I saw the statue of the world famous picture from WWII of the sailor kissing the girl. I knew I had to get a picture of it but first we went window shopping but we saw a guy who was silver & acted like a robot. We wanted a picture so we put a dollar in & got it, he was pretty funny he sounded like a duck lol. So finally after much debate Austin was told we had to try to imitate the statue/ picture. Then it was off to Oceanside then back to Biola to pack up & go home. So all in all the weekend was really fun. Ok so the funny thing of the sticker is it says "My Man is a United States Marine" on the back of a blue bug. So we made Austin drive us around well when we were going back to Oceanside it was Austin driving & his friend in the passenger seat while Candace & I were in the back. You can't see the people in the back so to the other cars it was like only Austin & his friend was in the car. It was pretty funny cause we were all going that the people would think they're gay because of the bumper sticker lol

Santa Calrita Livin'

So I have officially lived in Santa Clarita for a little over a week now. Classes are good. Way different from Biola but of course they would be. I'm glad I met Austin's friends before I actually moved down here because they keep me entertained. Justin Bower has been an amazing friend so far helping me from the application process, to stealing me & doing stuff around town like get ice cream & hiking. Then he takes me to classes on Tue & Thur which i cannot thank him enough for. Its so different than La Mirada. There is so much TV & Movie props & shows being filmed around here its so cool to have the chance to go to school & see the set of a tv show being filmed right in front of you though I have yet to experience it. I went to Laguna beach on Sat to hang with Austin, his dad, step-mom & lil sis. It was a lot of fun even though the water was FREEZING. I got sunburned too :(. So far Santa Clarita I'm liking it. Austin's mom has been a huge help lending me her BMW on Mon & Wed to get to the CCC campus. The hardest part is learning street names & where they take you but it will take me a lil to get used to that.

5 Months

Well today is Austin & my 5th month anniversary. It's crazy to think that its been 5 months everyone thinks its longer cause it seems like it. I finally got to see him after 2 & 1/2 months of being apart. I missed him lol :D. I love you Austin!!! You have no idea how hard it was to be away from you cause I missed you so much

Day 30

Finally I have time to do this last day haah
Day 30- Who are you?
I am Meghan Ford duh ahaa I like. I'm a very crazy, hyper girl who loves to watch sports & play them

Day 28 & 29

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then? The 2nd picture is on me the night before I left to Biola. I was really really young I feel. 1st time leaving home & going to college not knowing what to expect. I was happy & excited
The 1st picture was taken about a week ago. I've changed in that I don't really need my parents in my life all the time. I've matured a lot & have gone through tough times that I really shouldn't have gone through. Found love & gained education. Getting ready for my new adventure in So Cal

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
Well I will do it for July. I learned that its ok to miss someone & not talk to them for a day or two. I also learned I need to be away from my parents if I want to move on with my life....also that wakeboards hurt lmao. But on a serious note I've learned to take responsibility if I want it I have to go for it & not expect people to just hand it to me.

Day 27

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Well I'm on summer vacation, not much to do & I couldn't find a job & had hella time on my hands so yeah.... lol

Day 26

Day 26- What you think about your friends?
My friends are amazing idk if I could have asked for a better group of people. I have like a couple groups of friends. I have my Biola friends which are really really protective of me. Then I have my Modesto friends. These guys have know me either from Elementary, Middle or High School they have been with me through thick & thin I love them to death & they know the real me, with football guys & just about everything else. Then football friends. They have know me on the field & have seen me push myself further than I thought I could. Then last but not least Austin's friends. These are a bunch of really cool & welcoming batch of amazingly real people. Different backgrounds, ethnicity & they all are funny!

Day 25

Day 25- What I would find in your bag?
you would find in my purse my wallet, keys & a few pennies

Day 24

Day 24- A letter to your parents
Dear Mom & Dad, thank you so much for teaching me so much about myself & my life growing up. Setting a good example of what a marriage should look like except with less kids ;). Thank you for letting me pursue my dream of playing football & then my dream to go to Biola. Although the last dream came to a close quicker than I would like I am thakful you let me go for that one year because it has changed my life for the better. I'm onto my next adventure in life & you have to understand its my turn to make mistakes, to get hurt in love, to fall in love & out of it if that may be. But most of all I'm 19, I can make pretty good decisions on my own about how I want my life to play out. I like the commentary but I also have to think about myself too, what I want as well. <3 Meghan

Day 23

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

I crave Taco's all the time!!!! They are my favorite food. You can it as a taco or make it into a salad!!! its soooooooo good

Day 22

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else?
Well for one 1 I played High School football all 4yrs. I love being active & playing paintball with my friends as well as going hiking. I'm just different because I don't conform to what people think of me & I like to lift weights. I say what I want to, dress how I want to & do what I want to.

Day 21

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

This is for you Sam

Samuel Michael Cashion June 10, 1985- August 10,2010. You will always be remembered as a loving Husband, Father, Boyfriend, Friend, and Hero. RIP Sam. Sam was a great guy even though we never met in person he changed my life. I met him through Austin. We would talk about the most random funny things ever. I would help him with girl stuff & he would help me with guy stuff. We were both here for each other when something bad happened or if something good happened. We lost him to cancer when we thought he was doing good he snuck away from us & flew to heaven. I told him once I got there he was gonna lose to me in a game of football. He will be missed terribly & I am praying for his family & friends. RIP Sam you went too soon but don't worry we will meet ;) just not for a long long time ;)

Day 17-20

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

I've been gone all weekend so now I can do them lol.
17-I would want to be president for a day because I could have the power to change & help people
18- Plans are on the 18th im going to see a movie, this Sat im going clubbing, 20th im moving to So Cal & start Junior College the next week.
19-Nicknames: Meghancita (Alexus) , Meme (Kaleb) , Megilimoo (Mom) , Coach )flag football at Biola) & Pimp with boobs lol (I am ;)
20-Well obviously I'm with Austin lol. But on a serious note I can see myself with Austin for the rest of my life. I don't really care what people say about us being too young or barely know each other. I love him & I can totally see myself married to him. He's everything I could ever want.

Day 15 & 16

(Day 15)Sorry my Ipod was dead lol ok
1.Where does my Heart Beat Now 2.Addicted. 3. Hard. 4. Taking Chances. 5. If You Asked Me To 6.That's the Way It Is 7. Party Like a Rockstar 8. Because You Loved Me. 9. Kiss Me Thru the Phone 10. Amazed

Day 16 is the picture its of Kaleb & Me in Disneyland. I've watched Kaleb since he was 10 months old & he's 4 & 1/2 its crazy how time flies when you watch a child grow up

Day 14

This is a picture of my family & me in Disneyland with Kaleb a family friend :D

Day 13

A letter to someone who has hurt me recently

Dear Rachel
When you decided that you didn't want to be my friend anymore you could have just told me instead of ignoring me. I had no idea why you were ignoring me & wouldn't talk or hang out. Then when you finally told me why you gave me a reason finally so thank you. Have a good life

Day 12

I made a blog because Austin had one so I was like ok I can try to make one. Its also a good place to write all your feelings down like a diary only online for everyone else to see lol

Day 11

This is my best friend Alexus. I met her my Junior yr of HS & we totally clicked we had so much fun in Spanish class it was always fun. She was a big supporter of me in football. She was always at the game representing #88 lol. She was always there for me when I needed a friend. We had a lil saying Don't Cupcake haha!!!! Nada Nada Limonada lmao from Spanish class our teacher would always say.

These are my best friends Maria & Maggie. They are sisters & used to live right across the street from me for about 3yrs. I miss them a lot & don't get to hang with them as much as I want to. I got Maria a job at where I used to work at :D.

Day 10

Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Happy Song: California Gurls
Sad Song: You'll Be There
Bored Song: Shark in the Water
Hyped Song: Remember the Name
Mad Song: Leave (Get Out)

Day 9

Something I'm proud of in the past few days is I'm going to bed earlier & I got everything I needed to get done. I'm exhausted but I'm excited I'm done. I'm also proud that I'm helping my grandpa lose weight which is good because of his diabetes. :D

Day 8

My Short term goals for this month is to get fully registered into COC & eligible to get classes. The reason why is because I'm going to Junior College there & its hard getting stuff done when your 5hrs away from the college & dealing with my college I went to last year trying to unregistered & get my deposits back...its 6hrs away from me.

Day 7

This is a picture of me & my mom. She has had a huge impact on my life showing me how to grow up & giving me advice on life, guys, & school

Day 6

My favorite superhero has to be Superman. He's strong, fast & hes really chilled out. He's an actual superhero because he doesn't need a utility belt or a bite from a spider he was born this way.

Day 5

This is a picture of Huntington Beach I totally love this pictures its of my roomie Candace & Me.

Day 4

A habit I wish I didn't have is not having a back up plan. I always think plan A is going to work that I never think up a plan B. I'm learning on making up 2 plans just in case one goes bad...like its always usual seems to do

Day 3

This is a pic of my friends at Biola these girls are amazing women in Christ. To the left is Candace. She was my rooomie this past year we've had great times together haha. In the middle is Danica. She's my giant :D we've had good talks & hangouts together we goof off around each other. Last but not least is Danielle. She's so funny & can make me crack up she taught me so much this year just hanging out with her.

The other picture is of my bff Shiane. We had Ag together so we got pretty close. She is my giraffe!!!! We are both religious & are going through the same things right now. I just hope we remain friends for the rest of our lives she is truly a friend to keep!

Day 2/ our 4 month!

The meaning of my name....well my mom got my name (how its spelled) out of a book she read. Dumb I know haha but w/e. They same my name means in Greek-Pearl, & in Welsh-Little Pearl
& on a side note Happy 4 months Austin!!!!

Day 1

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
1. I've had my appendix taken out
2. I wanted to join the Marines
3. I've done a total of 8 yrs of football 4yrs flag from 4-7th grade & HS football
4. I'm double joined in my fingers
5. I can bend my thumb back pretty far
6. I have 4 yorkies & a black lab
7. I have been working out with my grandpa for 3yrs now
8. Everyone tells me I look exactly like my mom
9. I enjoy listening to music especially when I'm sad
10. I like being in relationships
11. I've wanted to be a cop since I was 12
12. I wouldn't want to do any part of my life over....ever
13. I knew I wanted to help people since I was young
14. I took classes to be on commercials
15. I've been told I could be a model.... If only I was like 5 in taller :'(

My 30 days

I decided for 30 days to do the following
Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- Why you made a blog
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag?
Day 26- What you think about your friends?
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30- Who are you?

Working Out

I have been working out since March. I've seen some great improvements with my body. I'm not trying to seem like I'm totally into myself I'm not I'm just proud of my work & keeping to it. Now I'm doing it 3 days a week with my grandpa helping him lose weight & also be able to eat more since he has diabetes so working out allows him to eat a lil more sugar than usual. But helping him work out is also making him healthier that is my main goal right now. We go on bike rides that are 6miles long & takes 30-45mins to complete & then we do weights. Bench press, butterflies, curls, & crunches then about 20-40 laps in the pool. I'm down to a 25in waist & I can see my top 2 abs!!!! I'm soooooo excited my bmi is down to 21% I want to get down to 20% which all i need to do is lose 1in on my waist or butt haha. So the progress is going good. My mom now wants to work out only her idea of working out is walking for a far distance haha whatever keeps her happy :) So working out is going good which keeps me happy :) ps sorry I can't rotate the pic since it was off my cell phone :(

ECLIPSE!!!

AHHHHHHHH so I just got done watching The Twilight Saga: Eclipse it is by far my favorite my movie now! I was afraid that the director David Slade who is known for scary movies was going to make it really dark & un-romantic but I was soooo wrong. I loved it. Like it says it all began with a choice. Edward....or Jacob but really in the end we learn that it was about who she is supposed to be & who she is thats the choice she must make. To be who she is supposed to be (with Jacob) or to be who she is (with Edward).It had a good balance of romance to action. It had me holding back tears toward the end. The scene I loved the most was when Edward proposed to Bella "Isabella Swan, I promise to love you every moment of forever." then showed the ring & I must say it was some bling bling going on haha. I loved the tent scene. You get a little bit into the head of Edward & it's where Jacob & Edward finally talk to each other without getting into a fight. I wish they didn't rush the scene with Rosalie & her telling about how she was turned :(. But I loved the scene with Charlie & the whole sex talk that was pretty funny. But I loved how romantic it was between Edward & Bella when he tells her that back when he was human in the 1920's he would be courting her, sitting on the porch with ice tea. It was cute. I'm disappointed that my favorite quotes didn't make it in "The Clouds I can handle, but I can't fight with an Eclipse." & "Does my being half naked bother you?" But I am in love with how they incorporated the poem Fire and Ice by Robert Frost "Some say the world will end in fire, Some say in ice. From what I've tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire. But if I had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate To say for destruction ice Is also great And would suffice."
By far my favorite poem I don't know why but I like it. So for me Eclipse gets 10/10 & I sooooo wanna see it again & again & I want to own it on DVD!

Look after my heart — I’ve left it with you.

I love this quote from Eclipse its on page 95. Edward tells this to Bella on a note while she is asleep. I think its really cute! I thought I would do a post with an Eclipse quote since we are officially 1 day away from seeing Eclipse!!! I'm so excited, but I'm most excited for the tent scene all you Twilight fans know what I mean ;) I feel as if I left my heart with Austin. On the Bachelorette a guy named Kasey would always say that he was there to guard and protect Ali's heart. Well this quotes is asking the same. To guard and protect my heart because I will do the same. Seems the mini deployment has turned out to be a long one :( but he asked me to the Marine Corps Ball!!! ahhhhhh I'm so nervous I've never been to a Marine Corps Ball but I did go to an NJROTC Ball & had a blast with friends. So thats something to look forward to in 4 months. Wow.... by then it will be our 7th month anniversary when we go to the Ball. Austin Taylor McCullough Look after my heart— I’ve left it with you. I love you & miss so much!

My Aunt Rachel

So I have technically known her for a lil over a year now but she has made such a big impact on my life. She is such an amazing person I love her! She is someone I can talk to about anything & not have to get a lecture from or talks about right & wrong. She does crazy fun stuff with me & worked out with me over summer last year. We let the boys ride up further while we talked about boys, life & college. She recently moved back to Texas because she could get a job there. I was at Biola when she decided to move. She came down to say her goodbyes so I was the last one to say their goodbyes to her. I totally cried right after because I felt I lost a best friend even though she a txt or phone call away. She has helped me see through some tough times & happy times & has talked to me about stuff I wasn't too sure on. So Aunt Rachel thank you so much for being apart of my life & making it better :D I love & miss you

"Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die"

As Tupac said why are we dying to live, to do the things we do, to go crazy on the weekends or finally graduate...because in the end we are just living to die. Each day is a day closer to death, I can feel it. The whole controversy over 2012 freaks me out. I don't like the though that I'm gonna be 21 & die, its not in my playbook, not on my to do list. I want to live a long life, get married, have kids, then watch my kids grow up, get married & make grandkids. I'm not sure but I feel as if my life has been wasted if the world does end in 2012. I spend my whole life in school so my life is worth nothing in the end all that schooling for nothing. So yeah I feel as if I'm only living to die, right now I'm not thinking straight my head is in the clouds. I just need a wake up call get me out of this state of mind, I'm only hurting myself. Gotta pray, gotta be surrounded by people that love me & I can talk to.

Home

So I've been home for a little over a week now & it's great to see my friends. Its hard finding a job but I'm not giving up. Seeing how my friends have changed in the course of 1 year is pretty cool. It's funny I got told twice that it looks like I lost weight....so all the hours in the gym & not really eating worked haha ;). I just hate sitting around the house not being able to do anything. I need a job asap before I go insane. My neighbor's internet is down so I have to use my brothers' computer...hard to do since my younger brother as well as my mom fight over it so trying to get on is kinda hard hopefully the internet will be up on Mon so I can go back to my laptop lol. I just can't wait to hit up the lake & get my tubing on!!! Here's to making Summer 10' the best one yet!

They finally met!!!

Austin finally met my parents. haha Saturday the 29th we went to Pendleton to pick him up. We then went to Del Mar beach where we played in the water & had a great time getting sunburned. Then we went to Oceanside Pier to check it out then back to Pendleton for dinner. They got along great & my parents love Austin. One big hurdle done....now what do my brothers think?? My older bro & 2 younger ones love him. They talked all night long. So they begged Austin to come to our condo in Indio on Sunday. He said he would so Sunday he got here & we chilled at the pool ;) haha. We cooked up Carne Asada & just had a relaxing day. Then later on we all went in the pool and hot tub. My older brother is going to Navy boot camp in exactly 2 weeks from today so to have Austin in the Marines is good because Matthew could ask him stuff about military and other things. Another thing they both have in common is the both like WoW aka World of Warcraft. I hate it but they both like it so whatever makes em happy. I had to say goodbye to Austin yesterday morning at like 5am worst thing ever but grrr stupid 3 months. I gotta focus on making hella money so I can come back down here! I really don't want to leave. So my parents give him a thumbs up PTL! They like him and how he is a Marine & serving our country. We are a big military family so Austin fits in as well as we all are dorks and completely do stupid stuff that could possibly hurt us all the time. We can make fun of ourselves. So to end it Austin gets the seal of approval from the parents lol YAY!!!

2 months...

2 months ago yesterday I decided to go out with this incredible handsome and funny guy. He made me smile and get butterflies in my stomach. When he smiled he would light up the world and when he looked at me I felt as if I was the only person around. I have been dating Austin Taylor McCullough for 2 incredible months now. I've met his parents, his other parents haha and his friends. From what I can see I think I get the sign of approval. It doesn't seem like 2 months but it has been. The best 2 months ever. He has gone through a lot just to be able to come see me & I feel as if I don't show him that I appreciate it but I truly do. He is the most amazing guy I know. He is soooo unlike any guy I have every date for the better. He makes me so happy and feel so special. I'm sad I have to leave for the summer but hopefully it won't be too long til I can come back. My parents know how much I desire to come back for many reasons, the school, the amazing education I receive, the friends I've made this year and Austin. I love him to death and he knows that. So this is how it all started....I could have ruined everything the night we went to Hollywood, it was horrible I was with friends who ended up showing 5hrs later than the time I told Austin yet he stayed there til we got there. He was such a trooper. Then my friends who met me there acted like idiots and made Austin & his friends upset. I really don't know how but he texted me and asked me for another date, an official date. I of course said yes!! He picked me up in his blues with 3 white roses.... can you say awwwwwwwww I mean seriously!!! I remember chats we would have and one of them was that he would never ever wear his blues to Disneyland....well that night he did :D!!!! Then the next date was a day later back at Disneyland where we had our 1st kiss in the Chip N Dale Tree-house in Toon Town...most amazing kiss ever!!!! Then he asked me out under the fireworks sooo romantic but I needed to make sure that was what I really wanted. So I prayed about it & came to the answer of yes obviously & we have been going out since. He has been the most amazing boyfriend I could have asked for & his friends and family have been so loving & welcoming that it made it a little less intimidating for me. So to all of you I thank. So I think 2 months is just getting started in this relationship....I think we can make it but only time will tell, like my mom said today, this distance will show if we can truly make it or not...not being able to see each other like every weekend or every other weekend being busy with jobs and not being able to talk constantly. I know we can make it just gotta get through this mini deployment :D I love you Austin

Summer....its coming all to quickly

So finals are next week.... & then officially on Tuesday of next week I'm done with my 1st year of College. It's definitely bittersweet. I'm glad to be done with 8am classes and 7-10pm classes and all the essays, but I'm not ready to leave the friendships I've just begun. We've known each other for about 9 months now....gotten to know each other pretty well spending countless mornings and night together. I'm not ready to give up being on "crack" as we like to call it but being high on life with other Christians my age going through what I am. I'm also not ready to leave to Nor Cal because I'm leaving Austin in So Cal. I'm calling it our mini deployment because idk if & when we can talk because I will hopefully be working a lot at my old job if they take me back. It sucks but I know we can make it through anything because we love each other and trust each other also we communicate our problems or fears about certain things which will help us in the long run. Skype will be my new best friend. I'm kinda happy I'm coming home though because I get to see my brother Matthew off into the Navy for Basic Training. I pray he does well and comes back changed and ready to start his life. I'm also excited to see all my friends and those who are going to graduate this year. I'm excited to see what they do with their lives since I was just like them a year ago....it's crazy to think about it. 1 year ago I was just about to graduate, excited to go to College still a child in behavior relying on my parents for a lot of stuff not very independent. Now I can stand on my own two feet without my parents being right behind me pushing me along telling me to do my homework or laundry or dishes lol. Summer used to be about relaxing, boating and unforgettable moments with friends. This year it takes on a whole new meaning of sadness but also hope that I can come back and see everyone again maybe not as a student of Biola University as planned but as a friend. If I cannot come back I'm planning a trip down in October to hit up Disneyland and hopefully in November for the Marine Corps ball if I get asked by Austin....but thats too far in advance to think right now. I'm taking it day by day. Had a good 2 & 1/2 hour cry on this subject of summer. Just to know how much people changed my life makes me smile and hopefully I've affected or changed some of their lives for the better. Hopefully when I come home my friends and family will see how much I've grown in my faith as well as maturity. I hope they can see I'm not some small teenager but as an adult who has opinions and can have a well educated conversation with others. Let's make the best of this summer, you only get one a year

My Birthday 5/3

I'm officially 19!!! haha it seems like yesterday I turned 18, was just about to graduate High School knowing I was going to Biola. Time seems to fly when your doing what you love with people you love. I celebrated at Disneyland....one of my all time dreams I finally got done. I love how the "cast members" all tell you happy birthday, it just makes the day feel even better! I was sad I didn't get to hang with friends at home since I am in So Cal but I went to Dland with my friend Meagan. Then when I got home I was surprised by a party from Candace, Danielle, Katie & Sara. They got me presents & cards & a room full of balloons. I had an early birthday with Austin in San Diego when he took me to Indian food in his Blues...I love being a Marine's girl :D. So now that I'm 19 its a tease you're over 18 so you're already legal but 2 years away from legally drinking....21 is gonna be the last year I look forward too...all the rest are just let downs..you're just getting older. Nothing is gained but knowledge, no new privileged gained. Now gotta get ready for finals in 2 weeks, finish up my 5pg essay then do my take home final early. Oh the life of a college student :D

Ring By Spring

That is the big thing on girls minds here at Biola. The Ring by Spring... the saying is oh so annoying. Many of the girls say if I dress a certain way I could definitely have a "Ring by Spring" but I don't. Who really does? When it comes to marriage its about getting to know the person & promising them to spend the rest of your life with them, being there for them and giving all of yourself to them. So being as my 1st year here... I really am not ready for that. But who is? Its a totally new lifestyle living with someone of the opposite gender. Finding their crazy obsessions or how they don't clean up after themselves. I personally want to know the person pretty well before anything about marriage is a serious thought. I have to know I am truly happy with them, I can see myself with them and that I am comfortable around them as myself, with my flaws, my good days and bad days. But also a big part of it is parents. You all know those movies where either the In-laws hate the son or the Mother-in-law hates the daughter. Family is important to me so if I don't click with the family that is a total big sign that it might not work. You have to set up a good foundation with all the friends and family for them to like you and trust that you will not hurt the one you & they love. So yeah Ring by Spring....not happening this year :D Sorry ladies hahaha

College Life

Well as my 1st year of college is coming to a close in about a month I thought I would share my experiences so far. I've met amazing people along my journey in this little So Cal town called La Mirada. People with whom if I didn't meet I would not be the same person I am today. Danielle, Danica, Candace, Megan, Meagan, Kristin, Jenny, Sara, & Courtney all have had a huge impact. Well I did a inter mural sport of flag football where I met Meagan, Megan, Kristin and Courtney. I was the Coach, Wide Receiver, Safety, Quarterback and Lineman. Throughout the experience I learned to trust these girls and became closer to them because of the practices and games. We lost just about all of our games but we did it never giving up til the game was over. We finally won a game after I threw our 1st TD ever then not even 5 minutes later I ran another in to win the game 2-0. Danielle is amazing in her own way. We have a hate love relationship we make fun of each other all the time but we've gotten to know each other pretty well with long talk about life, & God. Candace, my roomie is the most amazing person dealing with me all the time. We've become really good friends watching movies together just hanging out. Biola is wonderful its just what I needed. Danica is an amazing guitar player & an amazing friend :D. Classes are awesome with professors who want to help me succeed and want to see me accomplish my goals. Bible classes are teaching me about how I know about the Christian faith and God and is giving me better insight into who God is and what we Christians are truly about. Living in Sigma Chi I have Suitemates (we share the bathroom) They are amazing they are Kailyn & Kari. They are so sweet and caring. So coming onto the end of my 1st year I must admit college is soooo not what I expected. 1st semester was in a sense because I was constantly doing essays, one week I have 5 essays due but this semester is more laid back. Word of advice 8am classes are from Satan haha. Well I pray I can come back here next year because I truly know where I need to be is here at Biola because I am not only growing in faith but also I matured a lot from June to Now. Last June I was still a punk just graduated H.S. thought I could do anything but moving 6hrs away from my parents was a BIG wakeup call to me. I freaked out for about a week doing nothing but crying asking myself why I moved here, why didn't I have friends. I wanted to leave but something kept me here. I'm glad homesickness went away about 1month in when I made friends got classes situated found people to sit next to at the cafe & classes. The only thing hindering me from coming back is Financial Aid. As of this point I don't know how much I am getting in aid but please pray that it is enough to keep me here. I don't know what I will do if I can't come back.....

Relationships

Such a fun topic... not really. I've had about 10 boyfriends in my life so far. I'm usually the dumper I used to dump guys like candy in High School then onto the next flavor but then I fell in love with one of them to have my heart broken when he didn't said it back and when he broke up with me a week after & a week before my 18th birthday. Anyways my life with guys hasn't gone very well. I've only kissed like 6 guys out of 10 but I think I'm unlucky in love. I think it might be my personal decision to wait til marriage to "give it up" I have a purity ring I bought over Winter Break that only leaves my hand in the shower, bowling or washing my face other than that it is always there to remind myself what I vowed to do for myself. It says True Love Waits 1 Timothy 4:12 . But then along came Austin.... o Austin my goofy, crazy, funny boyfriends and things clicked. Its strange because with guys I tend to be very very uncomfortable around them alone. I don't trust guys because of something in my past, I won't say here but if you want to know ask. But with him, it didn't take long for me to trust him, which for me, is crazy because the last guy which this happened with happened to break my heart. So I was really really nervous at 1st. But to my surprise everything he tells me he does like he tells me we are going to his moms & then back to Biola & he does. He is constantly making sure I'm ok & I'm not uncomfy or scared or pushing the boundaries we've set. I'm so lucky to have found him I thank God everyday. He is everything I have been looking for. Seriously, he may have some flaws but we are human we work through them, he makes me mad & then we talk it over. We are on the same page on just about everything. He respects that I'm waiting til marriage & he knows if he is with me he will be too if we end up going all the way.... only time will tell.... so yeah Relationships haha such a fun topic about guys & girls, all the awkwardness of the 1st kiss, or the 1st time a guy holds your hand, takes you out on a date, or just completely and utterly take your breath away when on the 1st date shows up in Dress Blues with 3 white roses for you not even telling you he's showing up like that making you feel wayyyyyyy under dressed. But thats what I love about him. He is always random I have no idea what he is going to do next.

Parents

Myparents are amazing!!! My mom Joan Ford is the most amazing woman on the face of this planet!!!! Not only is she my mom but she also is a RN nurse for our Hospital working in the Mother Baby department working with moms & babies. It seems as if she works all the time but its 3 days a week but the shifts are 12hrs. When we were younger she would be gone before we got up and home when we were asleep yet she made time for us on her days off. Now that we are growing up with later bedtimes haha she will cook us dinner or watch a show with us. She was my biggest supporter with my football going to every game she could rocking my jersey. She is my best friend and I love her to death. My dad.... wow how do I start haha well my dad is such a dorkfish. He always seems to get hurt or just do something really stupid that ends up being hella funny. My dad is obsessed with Bass fishing he totally loves it. He is like a big kid in a way but he also has a lot of health problems. He has had neck, back, knee, appendix, & gallbladder surgery. He is currently working for his friends fishing shop. I love my dad but there are times we fight but nothing too bad. He always supported me doing football being in the stands screaming at a B.S. call one of the refs did or how we as a team couldn't wrap the guy up or catch the ball. But yet he always was there supporting me and my passion. They are pretty amazing and have made me the way I am today. I look like my mom, but totally act like my dad, goofing off all the time and having fun. Fishing, paint-balling and playing the Wii are my favorite things to do with my dad. I love cuddling up to my mom & watching all of our T.V. shows we love also shopping or just having quality mommy and me time. My parents are my inspiration when it comes to marriage because its has been 21yrs so far & its all about talking & meeting each other half way. I love them dearly & hope I turn out like them :)

Life so far

Well hello there I'm Meghan. This is my 1st time blogging so bear with me lol. Life so far has had its ups and downs as well as miracles along the way. I'm currently 18 enrolled at Biola University with a bf named Austin who is a Marine. I'm a freshman studying Sociology... the study of humans and why we act they way we do. Well I have 3 brothers 1 older 2 younger. Matthew is the oldest, he is currently enlisted in the Navy & heading to boot June 5th. Robert and Daniel are the younger two. Born on the same day 3 years apart these two looked like twins growing up. Daniel is our little miracle brother, he was born with a hole in his heart that soon lead to his valve closing cause him to have open heart surgery at the age of 9 years old. He is an amazing little boy who kinda takes after me in a sense. We both are loud and crazy while Matthew and Robert are more reserved. Daniel & I love sports and being active whereas the other two don't. Well as for me I had appendectomy in the 6th grade to remove my appendix, I've been hit in the head with a gold club and ball both compliments to Matthew. I did 3 years of Track in Middle School my focus was on the Mile and the Hurdles but when I got into High School it was all about football. Yes, I played on the guys team all four years. I did everything the guys did. I miss it a lot thought :( . Past relationships have all fizzled out. I am usually the dumper but last April I was dumped by the guy I loved... the 1st guy I loved. It took me about 8 months to get over him and it took a lot of crying and rebounds but I can say I am truly over him. Everyone I talk to that has either seen my mom or seen a picture says I look exactly like her. I guess I do but I'm more like my dad. Being athletic is a lifestyle for me. My family is in love with Yorkshire Terriers. We currently have 4 because we bred them so we decided to keep 2 of them. We also have a black lab who is the cutest thing ever! His tail will hurt you...I'm not kidding its like whip lash. I love working out and keeping in shape as well as goofing off and having fun. I can talk to people I randomly meet but I also am shy which I get from my mom as well as my stubbornness. I was contemplating about whether or not to join the Marines when I was in High School but now I have decided against that and to get an education. I love it down here in Southern California but I dearly miss my friends back in Northern California or as we call it Nor Cal. I say Hella a lot as well as Whatever... which my dad hates ha ha. Well I guess that's really all about my life up until this point. Oh yeah please pray for financial aid to help me come back to Biola next year, I don't know what I would do if I couldn't come back...